too much
this is my first semester and this school is so fucking overwhelming. I cry all the time over this. I find myself crying like every other day. There is too much. I have to homework like 24/7 and after work i have zero time to do anything else. I have to do my homework during lectures and im falling behind because i cant pay attention. Yesterday i ended up just falling asleep in my classs multiple times cause im getting too tired. i dont fucking understand how anyone is able to do this. Especially not eecs 203 or math 217 theyre fucking absurd. Ive had several classes at community college whose entire courseload took less time than a single math 217 hw assignment. This is fucking ridiculous i do not have the mental fortitude to wake up, do nothing but homework, and not manage to get all the problems done then repeat every day until the due date. Its not even the content, if i had the ability to pay attention in class i know i would enjoy learning this content, but i cant. i dont know what to do. The only way i can get these assignments completely done is if i spread them over over the entire week with productivity software but its still such a time sink and unforgiving. I have zero clue how anyone can get an A or A- in these classes unless they took like 1 course per semester. I dont get it what is wrong with me? why tf was as i admitted here? I never struggled with getting assignments completed in community college or high school except during literal depressive episodes. I like this school i like learning to live on my own but this is too much and im just going insane. i want to atleast get friends or a boyfriend or do a club or whatever and i barely even have enough time to work a few shifts. Im not saying i expect this school to be like CC or HS, i know this place is harder and i want to be challenged. but like this is completely insane i dont have the mental strength for this.
edit: thank you all for taking time to talk to me and comment, this means more than you think.
I have some personal struggles going on that i havent mentioned in the post so please keep that in mind