What does it feel like?

I’m new to smoking. Never really experimented with it until my late 30s. Now it’s something I’ve started to do regularly bc I started dating someone who does and I feel safe enough to try.

But I’m confused if I’m doing it right and if what I’m experiencing is normal.

So, like, a lot of the time what seems to happen is that it hits me all at once. Which throws my body into a bit of a panic attack. I ride out the attack…which I think lasts maybe 30 min to an hour but time is messed up when I’m in that state.

After the panic I start to feel good and enjoy myself. Is the panic attack normal? Is that part of if? Fwiw I do struggle with anxiety so I’m not sure if the panic attack is a natural response or just my natural response

Then I feel like the high lasts…a long time. Like…I smoked at 830ish. Panic until 9-930. It’s now the next morning and I’m still high. Oh and I wa having dreams all night where I was aware I was high.

I need to do a bit of work this morning and I’m at a point where I can do the work…but I feel like I need to be extra careful with typos and things bc I’m not as sharp as usual.

Also…I thought I was getting too high so decided to just do one hit last night. Apparently it was a big one. But I feel like I got just as high with one big hit as I did taking several decent hits before

So…is there a max to how high I get and it doesn’t matter how much I smoke? Or does the high vary somehow with the amount?