It's genuinely over, my brain has been destroyed.

I'm 14 and my brain has been modeled to an extent which I can't escape. In the past 3 months I got into the blackpill looksmaxxing rabbit hole and since then I've been obsessed with my looks. That's not necessarily a bad thing, the problem is I've started starving myself to get a lower body fat percentage, I've started bonesmashing which is the practice of hitting your jaw with a hammer so that the bone regrows stronger. I've been rejected by 3 girls and I feel miserable. My self confidence is destroyed, and i hate just looking at myself. I know that someday I'm gonna look like a God, but It's really hard because I have no friends and my mom doesn't really exist in my life. I also have a skinny fat physique which sucks so much. I did drop down 7kgs in a month and I will drop more. I'm gonna come back in a week and give you updates. If you want to save yourself, don't interact with anything that has to do with looksmaxxing. Cheers!