I don't like my body

I'm a fat fugly sack of shit and I'm unlovable on all levels, I want to inflict an eating disorder on myself so I can be skinnier, I want to bleach my skin so I can be more appealing. I don't care anymore, I don't care if I becomes someones fetish I don't care if I ruin myself mentally I just want to be attractive I want to be loveable. I wish skin bleaching products were sold here. I know eating disorders can kill you and I know skin bleaching products can be toxic, I do not care, I don't want to be a fugly unloveable waste of space anymore.