Can Someone Just Punch Me in the Face Every Day and Tell Me Not To Smoke

Sometimes I wonder about my intelligence levels.

I’m a lifelong smoker (40 years). Been Type 1 Diabetic for 18 years now and asthmatic for 30 years. BMI of 25.5 and probably have what most sensible people would call a ‘functioning addiction’ to alcohol. Presently I smoke 15 cigarettes a day. I met the girl I will most likely spend the rest of my life with and I suffer with Erectile Disfunction from circulatory issues etc. I blame smoking.

On the flip side, I go to the gym 4 days a week and work hard at it - both cardio and weights. I walk my dog every morning for 3 miles. I eat healthy food and look after my mental health.

Now what I’m finding hard to fathom, on the odd occasion that I do have a bit of perspective, is ‘What the hell am I thinking? Why am I a smoker and why can I not stop?’ How stupid do you have to be to continue to smoke against all the problems listed above?

It’s clear that it is bad for me in every single way and the odds are that I will most likely have a heart attack in the next five years or so.

How the hell do I stop smoking and stay stopped. I am lost and feel totally powerless.