Today is day 3

So I don’t drink often but when I do I binge. This week I went from a girls weekend straight into a work conference and completely overdid it the second night. Coworkers began ripping shots so I partook.

The second half of the night is completely fuzzy. I feel like I probably overshared with some of my higher up’s and embarrassed myself. I’ve been shame spiraling since Wednesday and nauseous. A lot of what I talked about was around general fear and anger of the current status of the world since it will impact my ability to do my job. I work in a super corporate environment so it’s really not great to talk about these things in public. The next day everything was normal and everyone was joking about how we all got so drunk the night before but I was just feeling so ashamed and embarrassed. I can’t even remember the conversations I had before bed, and ended up throwing up when I went back to my room.

Anyway I’m just feeling awful and could use some support and encouraging words. I feel like my binging patterns have been getting worse in the last few months and I know it’s not sustainable.