I no longer fully trust what we call “Divine” Powers

Please do not read or wate your time if you are looking for positivity alone.

I used to have a blind faith for the longest time in the entity we call “god” in the 50 different religions. Like many other humans, my faith was reinforced by some “mystical” experiences and synchronicties. As well as how it made me feel within. That blind faith kept me afloat. I was fully invested and faithful. Unfortunately many years ago I started my journey down the rabbit hole. It gradually took me on a different journey. I no longer feel as though the Universe, god (whatever we call that force), is perfect. Pretty much like the earth creation we live in as well as ourselves. We have been given 1000 theories and cosmologies like the chips’ section in the supermatket. Pick the one that resonates.

I have always been afraid (programmed like many) to question divine authority. Realizing that I was also treated like crap when I had huge faith. I accepted things in this reality for what they are. The deeper I went, the more I realized that we are so lost and in the dark here, that we must hold on to something bigger than us. Even if it is all a mystery. Holding on to stories that happened thousands of years ago in scriptures. The modern prophets are the channelers or some random person who comes back from the other side of the Simulation after a 10 minutes NDE and millions are all ears to hear what they have to say.

I know that “many” people are fine with this reality (fine in a way that they bought one if the reasons we suffer or they don’t even question). Most people I know have found a reason to consent to this human experience. It is a school, a game, god is in control and testing us, we Volunteered, satan/negative aliens/demons… is/are the bad guys, we did something to deserve to be here (karma)… I realized that as unsettling as it is, I have the right to question so called higher powers. I am not obligated to agree with “spiritual” laws. I realized that the teachings and the laws are fallible. Looking at how slowly humanity is evolving and all the conflicts we face. Every person thinks their beliefs are superior. All that we have been given is hope as we walk with our wiped memories. Hope for liberation (heaven) when this body dies. Or hope to suddenly shift into a new reality Ismael Perez style.

I am learning to stand alone and no longer fall for any of the prophecies. Be it religious or New Age. I am learning to live day by day and not hold on to hope like a kid who is waiting for Santa. And not to sink into a depression just because I no longer hold on to beliefs or the unseen forces many worship. I trust that there are some very decent higher beings that exist. I also trust that there has been a huge mess up in the unseen realms. I try to forgive those higher powers for their mistakes. But I refuse to think of them as perfect as most do. It is way too easy to just blame some nasty forces for all the miseries that happen here. The divine forces are clear and clean as doves in all of this. It is most likely a huge lie.

Humans (including the so called awakened) have a long way to go. And we (sorry if I offend the know it all by saying we) must have the humility to accept that we know NOTHING about the absolute truth of the behind the scenes. We only have crumbs. Programming is not just religious. All beliefs are programs that cannot be verified (starseeds included). Ultimately this reality is a very complex operation that our limited mind cannot grasp. And the human avatar is a very advanced technology. Nothing counts but to uncover the true self underneath all the trauma and programs. It is better not to focus so much on the promised new earth, the good Ets, the guides, god… And not be so sad about a home we can’t even remember. No need to boost the ego by making up a purpose as to why we are here. We can either live in an illusion or accept that we are some clueless players in a cosmic experiment/show. The show must go on!