A markdown cake

I had a really rough year with grief last year, the whole year is like a blur and I spent majority of it not feeling good mentally.

I already had severe social phobia, anxiety and PTSD, and was struggling but the blows of grief (I lost two people last year within months and both unexpectedly) has been incredibly painful and I basically lost all sense of self just going through the motions and pretending to feel okay and happy..

Anyway my favourite show started last night (married at first sight Australia) it's a guilty pleasure and my nan (who passed away last year) and I used to watch it and then talk for hours on the phone about it all..

I did watch the show last year but it was in the midst of her passing and I honestly can't remember a thing about it .

Seeing the adverts for the show starting I felt excited about something for the first time in literally almost a year. I was looking forward to it all day. I haven't done that in so so long.

I did my groceries and saw a markdown cake and I thought, I'm celebrating my fave show starting tonight ofc Im getting a cake!

I planned my whole day around it! Had a nice dinner, had a nice bath, ready to watch my show. Romanticism I guess but it felt nice.

My husband shared a slice of celebratory cake with me and watched my show with me. He always rolls his eyes at the reality shows and thinks they're 'silly' but I'm grateful he watched it with me as he knew what it meant. I also think he secretly enjoyed it lol.

Anyway just wanted to share. Not a typical self care moment I guess but it really made me feel good.