Relationship anxiety sucks, but you aren’t alone
I just typed out a huge paragraph and then accidentally closed the app and deleted it… but basically, I have relationship anxiety. “What if I don’t love him anymore”, “what if I would be better off alone”, “what if I’m actually gay and lying to myself”, “what if I’m too young to know that he’s my person”, etc. Everyone has relationship anxiety, although maybe different thoughts depending on the person. It’s especially tough at the end of the honeymoon phase, and it’s especially tough if one or both people struggles with things like OCD, GAD, ADHD, or depression. But as long as your relationship is healthy, and as long as you feel safe, happy, and loved with your partner, it is JUST ANXIETY. So take a deep breath, ground yourself, and remember that the future is scary. Vulnerability is scary. Love is SCARY. But it is just anxiety. And if you’re ever in doubt, think of this quote from The Haunting of Bly Manor: “You shouldn't be thinking of losing each other at all. Don't let that loom over your happiness right now. Enjoy that easy silence with him.” If you’re reading this, your partner is probably your best friend. Your anxiety is probably out of nowhere, and you’re probably wondering why you even have anxiety at all. That’s how I am. But right now, I can just sit next to him and feel all of the good feelings, even after the honeymoon phase is over and we’re settling in. I’m not alone, and neither are you, and this will get easier. Take a deep breath. Drink some water. Everything is going to be okay.