Guilt after leaving AA

I left AA and I feel super guilty about it. I am 9 months sober but I feel like a failure and a bad narcissist who "wants to have everything to my liking" but tbh I just had enough of negativity at AA and I felt it was drugging me down. I also really do not have so many character defects. Everyone has some, I get it. But to make it my entire identity and now make my entire life about searching for defects and get fixated on AA just doesn't do it for me. Also I really feel insulted and mocked when people just blatantly say stuff like "poor me, poor me pour me another drink" or "If you don't resent anyone on meeting you don't come to enough meetings". I feel mocked. I have been through stuff and drunk as a cope. This language makes me feel that my experiences are minimised whereas "my part" and "how I hurt others" gets greatly exaggerated.