Why does being told to do affirmations make me so angry?

I understand the science behind it, very well actually. But the idea of doing it fills me with a rage that I can't really explain.

I'm not stronger because of what happened. I'm not pretty or happy or even healing right now. I don't want to lie. I want it to be okay that I'm not any of those things. I don't want a bandaid.

Affirmations feel so fake. Like I'm pretending that it'll all just go away. And maybe I don't want it to go away yet. He hasn't gotten in trouble for what he did. My father is going to get away with it. Shouldn't there be some proof of what he did? If I look in the mirror and tell myself that I'm not actually fucked up, that's basically the same thing as saying he didn't really do anything wrong. No victim no crime.

I'm just so sick of having them recommended. When I try I end up so upset. I'm hyper aware, hyper vigilant. I know the truth. I always know. If I can't trust the words coming out of my mouth how can I ever trust myself?