I shouldn’t feel so sorry.

TW : Abuse mention, sexual abuse, romantic partner

Just got woken up from a nightmare a few minutes ago, by my partner shaking me and telling me to “shut up” and stop “moaning/whining” then just overall tired rudeness.

I don’t expect him to be there for me every time I have a nightmare/flashback, I know that’s a lot. I don’t have the right to stress him out. I just won’t sleep tonight, this way he won’t have to deal with any of my crap.

I wish I could just not be bothered by this shit anymore. I wish it could all go away, or at least let me sleep, and let my partner sleep and be happy and carefree with me.

Sigh. TL;DR : partner upset about trauma nightmare and noises in my sleep, wish I could be better