I think it’s starting again

I stumbled across an article with an extremely specific interest of mine re: queer relationships, and messaged the author. She responded in a thoughtful, intense in-depth way, and that’s a huge turn on. We quickly became texting friends.

She’s bi but in a long-term relationship with a man, and I’m a lesbian. She texts me about random shit her and her bf talk about, and her and I share a love of romantic friendships. But there’s clearly some tension even as I feel a little lead on, mostly from my longing to go down the rabbit hole. I’d love a romantic friendship. just not an emotional affair!

She’s visiting where I live in a few months to see family. i just want to cuddle with her and hold her hands like I do my other queer friends (normally as the boyfriend awkwardly watches LOL), but this doesn’t feel as clear cut. there’s a part of me that wants us to consume each other and get deliriously lost, spending hours talking and making out.

It’s the kind of strange chemistry that makes Something feel inevitable, but I’m trying to contain myself because I’m not interested in being a homewrecker. If they’re poly it’s easier, not because I want to date her but because I Want Her in that limerent way. I just need all that intensity on me.