Holiday blues

Hello all. I am not sure if anyone else is feeling a bit blue. I am 4wpo and feel kinda low. I have been doing the best I can “creating holiday magic” but am half assing it. I don’t feel like having company. I have been having g some mood swings and get irritable easily especially with noise. We usually throw a big Xmas eve party for the fam. My husband and I had a talk about it. I told him I am okay with it (he is doing all the cooking and cleaning and prep) but as it’s getting closer I just feel like hiding in my room. I told him I might go hang out in there if it gets too loud/busy.

But then I was like did I just offer to hide in my own house? 😅 I would like to hear your holiday stories and if anyone else is feeling this way.