How much effd up is your life

Me :

23, guy, Diabetes, pinched nerve in neck, no relationships, no female interaction, porn addiction, no passion towards work and studies, ex weed addict, anxiety disorder, depression, overthinking, laziness and hopeless.

I think i will die sooner than I expected and have given up the thought of marrying or finding a partner (don’t want her to suffer with me)

Only good thing is that i have a decent job and a loving family (idk kabtak).

I am a kind of person that god set as an example for others to not do anything bad 🤣.

Itna sab ho chuka hai ki ab hasi aati hai rone ki jagah.

All opinions are welcomed 🥂