I can’t feel inside my front hole.. I’ve never been able to feel it and now I can’t stop dissociating during intimacy..help

I dissociate and go completely silent during sex with that part of me. I’ve been upset this week that my body doesn’t work and never has. I cant feel anything but pressure during sex and if someone points out how silent I am i realize that I’ve left myself and it makes it so much worse.. any advice? I’m waiting to get my insurance back to start my hair removal for phallo that Ive already had consults for. Idk maybe I will just never use that hole again.. does anyone else not feel anything inside?