Starting chemo and radiation and could use encouragement
This past year and a half has been really hard on me. I got sick in November of 2023 and I've never really recovered. From covid, to long covid, to kidney disease, and heart failure to a 2 month hospital stay this past summer after complications from the kidney biopsy, medically, life has been a bitch. I already deal with having lupus (diagnosed in 2011), and residual effects of the stroke I had in 2017 (I was only 37), some partial blindness in both eyes from who knows what (no worries, I'm getting an MRI done in April) plus other autoimmune stuff, so when I was diagnosed in December with stage 2b cervical cancer I've seriously gone into a bit of a depression. I'm trying so hard to be positive but I cry at the drop of a hat and I find myself constantly zoning out. I'm trying so hard to keep myself occupied and hold it together for my kids. To me they're still babies even at 18 and 20 years old. But sometimes it's so hard to put on that brave face for everyone. Today I'm making my daughter's favorite chocolate cake for her 19th birthday tomorrow. It's seriously the best chocolate cake. And I'll continue to show how "strong" I am. But I start chemo and radiation this Tuesday and could really use some positivity and good vibes. Not necessarily in my tree house but just in general and this community has been so uplifting and wonderful. Finch has helped me so much. I found it during my hospital stay because I was scrolling through Reddit trying to find some laughs. I never knew this little birb would give me such joy and light in my dark world. Thank you to the developers for making something so helpful. And thank you to all my birb friends. I may not know you in the real world, but you've impacted my life in a real way. TLDR: I'm starting cancer therapies on Tuesday and could use some good vibes.
Deleted previous post because I changed my mind about sharing but then decided to post it anyway.
This past year and a half has been really hard on me. I got sick in November of 2023 and I've never really recovered. From covid, to long covid, to kidney disease, and heart failure to a 2 month hospital stay this past summer after complications from the kidney biopsy, medically, life has been a bitch. I already deal with having lupus (diagnosed in 2011), and residual effects of the stroke I had in 2017 (I was only 37), some partial blindness in both eyes from who knows what (no worries, I'm getting an MRI done in April) plus other autoimmune stuff, so when I was diagnosed in December with stage 2b cervical cancer I've seriously gone into a bit of a depression. I'm trying so hard to be positive but I cry at the drop of a hat and I find myself constantly zoning out. I'm trying so hard to keep myself occupied and hold it together for my kids. To me they're still babies even at 18 and 20 years old. But sometimes it's so hard to put on that brave face for everyone. Today I'm making my daughter's favorite chocolate cake for her 19th birthday tomorrow. It's seriously the best chocolate cake. And I'll continue to show how "strong" I am. But I start chemo and radiation this Tuesday and could really use some positivity and good vibes. Not necessarily in my tree house but just in general and this community has been so uplifting and wonderful. Finch has helped me so much. I found it during my hospital stay because I was scrolling through Reddit trying to find some laughs. I never knew this little birb would give me such joy and light in my dark world. Thank you to the developers for making something so helpful. And thank you to all my birb friends. I may not know you in the real world, but you've impacted my life in a real way. TLDR: I'm starting cancer therapies on Tuesday and could use some good vibes.
Deleted previous post because I changed my mind about sharing but then decided to post it anyway.