The hope of a liberating future

I came to share something good that I'm experiencing, but at the same time it's distressing. In the last 2 months I have been taking a series of entrance exams to try to get into a college. Fortunately, I think I did well. The chance of me getting into a college is real (50/50 or better). However, what I have most in mind is not the college itself, but the possibility of having to live alone. Being a femboy does me a lot of good (I smiled the most sincerely in my life trying on women's clothes), but I don't have the freedon I want living with my parents. If I happen to get into a college and have to live alone, I will finally be able to buy the clothes I want so much without having to fear being discovered. However, I should only get confirmation of this wish in mid-March, that is, I still have to wait 3 long months to see if I will be free. The wait is agonizing. I have been very anxious recently. Just thinking about being able to wear a skirt, crop top, underwears, whatever I want, makes my heart race and I feel butterflies in my chest. What I want with this message is to vent a little, while at the same time bringing you good news. I imagine that someone has already experienced or is going through this. If you have anything to tell me, such as ways to deal with anxiety, encouragement, facts or illusions about what it's like to live this way, or just want to talk, you can comment here or send me a direct message. Even though I'm new to this community, I would like to thank you all for your support. You guys are amazing. I'll be bringing you more news soon. I'll be happy to be able to share my story from the beginning (I started getting into this field this year). Love ya.