anyone else just love getting high and exercising?

I'm a newcomer to the cannabis world. I had bad issues in the past as a teenager with it where I would green out because I couldn't handle the sensory overload of my own body. I started vaping and eating edibles few months ago and now I almost can't stop myself from getting ripped every time I lift.

I was incredibly fortunate to score a cheap weight rack, barbell and half a ton of plates and put it in my garage just before covid came. I immediately put it to use by giving up weight lifting and picking up drinking during covid. Now I'm off the booze and exercising really helps me reconnect with my body. I had completely shut down for decades and I'm just beginning to process what the fuck that means and the emotions that comes with. Kinda feels I woke up late in life with autism other fun conditions and vague memories of a different life. Feels like my past wasn't really me.

In the process of my morning caffeine and cannabis ritual so I can go out and lift the iron some. When I lift high I imagine what it feels like to believe in myself and to be resilient. Just to get a little taste of what confidence is like. Then the high wears off and the pump goes away and I shrink back down into a neurotic loser. Then I'm just waiting for the next vape and thinking how I can stim with some art to chase feeling normal again. Back in the mire of sensory issues and overwhelming emotion. Its rough out there bros. Listen to what Three 6 had to say and stay high out there fellow autists.