My brain feels broken

I’ve struggled with depression and social anxiety for years. I don’t have trauma, I just was always shy and quiet and struggled to make friends after high school.

A big reason I can’t socialize is because I have an awful memory where I can’t share anything about my life or what I’m interested in. I try to think of things but it just feels completely foggy. I have nothing ever to say.

This emptiness spills over into all aspects of my life, affecting my job, I struggle to learn or do anything… I feel completely incompetent.

Please if anyone has experienced anything similar let me know, I’m at a loss for answers…