I've given a woman over $2000 and I cannot stop doing it.

I met this out of state woman online and she's married with two children. She led me on to believe she loved me for 6 months before revealing her marriage to me. She lives out of state in a camper with her husband and kids. We were sexual from the jump. This transgressed into me giving her money as I masturbated. I would send $5 and told her to tell me if she wanted more. She was very very hesitant at first but now if I tell her how much money she wants, she will do over $100 sometimes. I once sent her $1000 in one go before begging for it back after I came and reached post nut clarity.

Over the last year I have sent her $2300. I cannot afford to continue but it makes me feel very good in the moment and she obviously loves it too. She doesn't deserve a dime and I know this and I wonder if that's in part why I keep continuing to do so. I have sent her $283 this month alone.

No this is not a troll post either