Dissociative amnesia and recovery

I've been silently lurking here since getting my first flashback in November. Dissociative amnesia may have kept me functioning for 35+ years, but its withdrawal is absolutely horrific for me.

For anyone that has had dissociative amnesia for decades, how in the world do you function on a day-to-day basis once the veil starts to lift? If you have a job and/or family with kids, how do you stay present?

Everything is so fresh and raw for me right now that I have trouble seeing a way out of this to a better future. And my child and spouse are suffering for it too.

I have a therapist I've been with for four years, I'm on meds, I exercise everyday, but I'm barely treading water.