Age gap is causing issues

This didn't get any traction on the Wlw subreddit but I really need advice or something because I feel INSANE.

I feel like there isn't anything wrong with age gaps as long as they aren't with you for that reason but that's not my problem here. Have you ever met an “older” woman, vibed out and then got sad because you’ll never be together? like I look back at 2020 and I was a baby…you were a full fledge adult, you graduated in 2016 while I wasnt even in middle school. I’m sad, we haven't expirenced the same things at the same time and I am no where near as responsible...I wish we could make it work. I just want to know how to get over these feelings.