Does someone here miss YDHB sometimes?

I'm kind of new in this sub. I used to watch her on Youtube, in probably her most active and popular era. It was way after the compilation videos and her phase when she was trying to be less mean and rude. I remembered starting to watch her when she was saying she was taking accountability for her old attitude and changing her ways because she wanted to be helpful instead of just snarky. At the time, she was doing a lot of ''Psy Perspectives'' videos. It was during the pandemic and a bit after that.
I remember her having some strong statements, but she seems to be able to balance herself most of the time. She was entertaining at moments and I learned a lot from her (''if you have the resources to help yourself, you should take them and improve. Other people don't have your privileges be grateful and use them.'')

As a disclaimer, I have an ED, so maybe I was internalizing some of her attitude toward Velvet.

I do remember her getting more and more rude, and annoyed with time until she got full-on bigot. I thought it was really weird of her to have such statements. So I went digging and found some controversies and, eventually, this sub. I never even went to check her IG to give you an idea. I was never aware of what was going on with her outside of what she was posting on youtube.

I used to like her because I would learn a lot from her talking about victim mentality and taking accountability (ironically). I wasn't always aligned with her opinions (I would still find her to have strong opinions and nitpick (that's the word?) for no reason). She would put down Velvet for dumb reasons sometimes (Coconut Oil, '' I have a degree and not you '', etc.)

But at the end of the day, I missed the blissful ignorance I had when I was watching her on Youtube. I wish she would have stuck with talking about psy perspective and nonsense topics online (instead of whatever right-wing bigotry she has going on right now.).

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I guess I just want to see if I'm the only one with this kind of weird perspective: being able to see and understand the criticisms and snark from this sub, but also missing her old content.

I really thought she had potential on Youtube and she had a really sweet community (from what I saw). I remembered people always doing shout-outs of their achievements, encouraging each other and I always thought that was nice.

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Anyway, time changes!

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