I hate having anxiety. I hate that I’m sensitive

I get embarrassed over literally everything. It’s awful.

I had to schedule for senior pictures last week. I had to schedule an appointment with my counselor. The appointment was sent to my email. I didn’t know I had to confirm the booking. The day of, I was told I wasn’t scheduled. I was really upset all day until I went to my counselor. She told me that I didn’t confirm the booking and I couldn’t help but cry. It’s really hard for me to explain my feelings verbally, so I didn’t say anything when she asked what was wrong. I was able to be squeezed in a little later but I felt so stupid.

Today my counselor was talking with another student who didn’t get their pictures taken yet and my counselor mentioned me, not by name. She was talking about a student that she had to schedule a couple hours after the appointment because the student didn’t schedule their booking and how inconvenient it was. And she said to the other student not to come crying mocking a crying voice. This was during my advisory class and my counselor had walked in to make an announcement, so I heard everything nearby. I feel terrible all over again. When I was younger, people would mock me for crying all the time, so that really hurt. I didn’t mean to be an inconvenience. I didn’t know. I feel so embarrassed. The worst thing about feeling this way is that it’s so hard to ignore stuff like this. It bothers me all day.