I [28m] am a frustrated nepo baby

Said and ranted about this many times.

I am nepo'd into a job I hate (project management), for financial reasons, I can't pull myself away (yet). The job is supposed to be easy, but I'm not good at it, my boss knows I'm not good at it, my mentor knows I'm not good at it, everybody knows. I'm genuinely trying my best, I show up every day re-reading documents from yesterday, I pour over emails and try to emulate their style, I take notes and ask for feedback, but all I get is people being frustrated with me for getting it wrong, and then insisting that I've been helped and that I'm not communicating enough.

I don't know if I'm being gaslit, or if they're justified (probably are), but I've lost all sense of self confidence. In fact, the only reason I'm not going out yet is because I've lost so much confidence in my communication skills that I doubt any company in the world is going to hire me. I spend a lot of time doing nothing like I'm being put into kiddie jail timeout instead of fixing my mistakes while others take over what's supposed to be my work.

I want out, but now since I'm a manager I've become overqualified for beginner roles where I feel like I should be. Plus, jobs are in short supply now. My skills most definitely do not match my resume, and I don't know how many more fake its I have in me.

I'm so tired. I don't know if what I'm doing is right. I don't know if I'm even putting in enough effort, these days. Maybe they're right and I'm actually a lazy slob, idk, I'm certainly posting on reddit while at work.