I hate how picky I am with people

Why do I just seem to be bored around everyone?

Why does it take so much energy for me to just have a conversation with someone?

Why is it not interesting to me?

Why do I not care? I want to care.

My social skills are seriously declining. I don't have a personality around people. I'm uninteresting to be around or talk to.

I'm preferring to just be alone but that's not really what I want. I feel like my life would be better with more genuine connections with people. But it's such a struggle for me to try. I hate how pathetic I am. Instead of trying I tell myself I'd rather just kms lol. So stupid.