Re-watch hurts more

I guess this is kind of a rant. Just me airing out my feelings. Anyway...

I watched handmaid's tale a good few years ago for the first time. I was dealing with about 9 years of unexplained fertility at the time, and was struggling with my faith, but obviously still thought Gilead was horrific and all kinds of wrong.

Now I have a 2 year old miracle of a little girl who came about naturally with no IVF or drugs or anything, just a sheer miracle, made even more so because we found out on Christmas Day.

I started rewatching recently and it just hurts so much more to think of Gilead taking away my girl, or her growing up in such a vile environment.

I'd burn the fucking world down if anyone tried to hurt her, and it makes me really understand June wanting to stay in Gilead. She's not thinking straight that she had a better chance of saving Hannah outside the oppression, she just wants to stay as close as she can to her daughter. I also, probably mistakenly, believe my daughter is safest the closer she is to me physically.