Dimag ka kachra

I feel disgusting right now. I feel like there's so much to do, but at the same time, I wonder what's even the point? Ughhh, I'm so tired of hiding things and suppressing my emotions. It's not like I don’t express them I do very openly. But sometimes, it feels like I’m just faking it. I’m so done with feeling this way for years. No matter what I do or don’t do I always feel guilty. It sucks bhai! I have friends and I’m very open with them and my family, but sometimes, there are things I just can’t share with anyone. I tell them almost everything, but my little secrets... I keep them to myself because I don’t want to hurt them. Suppressing my emotions piles up and boom! it turns into a big family drama because of me. And then, that awful feeling creeps in again ‘It happened because of me.’ I don’t even know who I am anymore. I don’t know my opinions on anything. I don’t know what to feel sad, happy? Nothing excites me anymore. Kabhi kabhi lagta hai depression mein Jane ki taiyari hai fir yad ata hai ki desi gharo mein depression jaisa kuch nahi hota 🙂

Ps.thoda khichdi pak gayi hai but theek hai kahi bhadaas nikalni thi🙃