college is some kind of sick joke

I 100% believe that college system is a some kind of sexual fetish by some super rich top of the pyramid asshole. (propaganda that makes people think they need to go to college when it is not needed for them and to make sure that they go in debt and waste time learning shits you can learn on fucking YouTube or a tutoring center.) I know that going to college can be productive and useful in someway, but when I'm sitting in a class watching a goddamn youtube video about a history of animation, (which I don't need to learn but I am taking because I need to get credit score to graduate) that is being played by a "professor" is just sickening me, it makes me want to fucking die. I can't think of any other reason why students have to go through this bullshit and gets addicted to drug or lose a shit tone amount of money. Why can't I just learn what I need to learn? Anyways, that's what I was thinking these days, and I feel more suicidal throughout the semester. maybe I'm the only one who thinks like this because I have 0 friends since when I was in middle school in 2017 and I hear voices in my head and I can't stop it telling me to fucking kill everyone and die.

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