My gf passed

I found my gf dead in her bed yesterday she killed herself and I’m having such a hard time with it I can’t sleep can’t eat the smell the sight and the feeling of her body it just won’t go away I’m at psych and getting help but its just so hard she was 19 and I’m 18 she was so young and didn’t deserve the pain she was in she was so amazing everybody loved her and she was funny and charming and so so beautiful I can’t describe how beautiful she was but the sight of her body was so traumatic