I Cut Off My Supply at the Source
Goodbye Elvanse! (Vyvanse USA).
Like so many of you here, I started ADHD medication and it seemed to work great…for 6 months. Then my descent into insanity and addiction took hold.
For almost a year I bargained and pleaded with myself to try and make Elvanse work. I learned, as everyone in this predicament will eventually, that there is controlling your addiction. It will always control you.
I took a 100 day tolerance break earlier this year, swearing that after that time things would be different. After relapse, it only took a month of the same old bullshit that motivated me to quit in the first place, and I wanted off the spiral of madness. The obsessive hair pulling, the acne, the sleepless nights, the paranoia, the inability to do anything other than Google ‘Elvanse and… Reddit’ reading other people’s negative experiences for hours and hours, feeling my heart race, the bad moods, the suicidal thoughts… it had to end.
I had an appointment with my local ADHD service anyway for med review. I told them I didn’t want it prescribed anymore. As there would be a delay in the attached letter being received by my GP, I also booked a GP appointment that day to get the prescription taken off.
It’s now been one week. It’s not easy, but being a prescription amphetamine addict is harder.
Goodbye Elvanse! (Vyvanse USA).
Like so many of you here, I started ADHD medication and it seemed to work great…for 6 months. Then my descent into insanity and addiction took hold.
For almost a year I bargained and pleaded with myself to try and make Elvanse work. I learned, as everyone in this predicament will eventually, that there is controlling your addiction. It will always control you.
I took a 100 day tolerance break earlier this year, swearing that after that time things would be different. After relapse, it only took a month of the same old bullshit that motivated me to quit in the first place, and I wanted off the spiral of madness. The obsessive hair pulling, the acne, the sleepless nights, the paranoia, the inability to do anything other than Google ‘Elvanse and… Reddit’ reading other people’s negative experiences for hours and hours, feeling my heart race, the bad moods, the suicidal thoughts… it had to end.
I had an appointment with my local ADHD service anyway for med review. I told them I didn’t want it prescribed anymore. As there would be a delay in the attached letter being received by my GP, I also booked a GP appointment that day to get the prescription taken off.
It’s now been one week. It’s not easy, but being a prescription amphetamine addict is harder.