Forever Love Letters

I fear I may be better off without you. I fear I still remain sane off traces of the past you.

Unresolved pain doesn’t fade—

it just sits lower inside my brain and begins to rearrange fragments that I can’t change.

Apologies are always past due.

Wickedness rolls off your lips from every kiss— the sensation must be bliss.

I wear a mask to hide scars that attached to my face; I can’t erase problems that I can’t face.

I may erase my existence from this place just because I have to.

The crash out, the lash out—they need to adapt to.

They can leave,but greed and envy, they keep running back to.

Shades I could never change. I tried to repaint the canvas in my brain; my brush is doused in bright blue—

I’m still searching for the right hue.

I hope you changed, I hope you found the right you.

I bleed through every page, struggling to express pain. My favorite place—a shattered, broken space.

My memories, I begin to chase. Every hit of my nostalgia is laced.

Take a deep look inside my brain. Read every chapter; contemplate after if you share blame.

Question if you feel shame.

I hope this message goes through.

I pour my spirit in each line—do you hear it? Each sin sits beneath my skin like a tattoo.

Only you know the truth, everything I can’t undo. I’m yours—I subdue.

I’m still here, in these love letters that I will forever write you.