I don't know what to do. Im not okay.

My 16 month old was screaming bloody murder and I could not figure out why.

After he woke up from a nap I changed his diaper and then I fed him solid food. I tried giving him his sippy cup after that and then he refused to drink it.

He also just now randomly walked up to the fridge and tapped/banged (not sure which) his own head on the outside of the fridge door while he was standing. (The fridge was closed) I don't know if he does that on purpose or not. And I don't know if that is normal or not.

Now he stopped crying for now as he is observing the cabinets. But I don't know what will set him off.

I tried distracting him with toys and it works for a few minutes until he gets bored of it.

Im not okay. I am not okay.

Now he is crying on and off. He stopped for now but I don't know when he will start again. And his screams and cries are louder than the average person. It is ear piercingly loud.

Everyone brags about how cute he is when he is calm but then they make a 180 opposite reaction when they hear him get cranky.

Being a single mom sucks. I don't have a family village either.

I don't even feel like the same person anymore. I feel like I am starting to resent my son and I hate myself for it.

I don't mean to sound harsh but I am trying to describe the situation as best as I can. Im really stressed out and I don't want the people in the hotel room across from us complaining about him again.