Guys I’m so pathetic

I was on day 5 and I can never get passed day 5 Today I was so board I did nothing the whole day I woke up to a weird dream I was masterbating in my dream not like a wet dream or anything I was masterbating then I woke up and told my self wtf what was that dream then I went to the toilet and looked at porn for like 30 mins but didn’t fap I told myself what am I doing the whole rest of the day I had urges and I was so board doing nothing I went to my bed hopped on TikTok to watch funny skits then a specific song came, so I pressed on it then I see a specific video a girl wearing a body suit and nothing else but her behind aka bum was big and the bum is my number 1 trigger so I went on her insta realised she’s a sex worker then went back on Instagram kept looking one specific photo came up and I couldn’t bare it I fapped for like 28 seconds pre cum came out and I realised wtf am I doing I just relapsed on day 5 now I’m just lying down in regretting what I done it’s like my brain tells me keep on fapping my brain is saying keep fapping it feels good but my body doesn’t want to fap I want to stop what does I do