From being kind to Cynical

I was wondering what was the best feeling I ever had in life, ani for me it was helping people without expecting anything in return. I used to buy food for old people who are begging, pay bus fair or random people who sat next to me or feed street dogs biscuits or donate my old books to low budget library, bought 1 meal worth of food for 100 people in some ashram etc, pray for other people when I went to temple..the feeling I felt while doing these acts made me feel happy..there was some sort of joy in it that I haven't experienced before.

As I have grown older, I have changed I think I am now more cynical then before ani not kind as I used to be, not hopeful about things as I used to be.

I miss that feeling somehow today, how did things change so fast jasto lagcha sochda but well, maybe it's not too late to be kind ani I should try to be kind whenever I get a opportunity to help someone out even if it's just in a small way.