God the red flags man

So, he's getting all dolled up to go see his daughter in a choir performance. Didnt ask me if I wanted to go. Shaved. Brushed his teeth and showered. Prob shaved there too.

Part of me is thinking he wants to see his ex. From things he's telling me she sounds better than me. But again he's saying all the things I do are what she did too so...I def don't believe him either way. Maybe she wants so bad.

It gets so bad I wish I could call someone to listen. To tell me I'm not crazy and acting irrational. I haven't had friends or family in so long. So isolated and alone.