Being a nanny has made me so depressed.

Hi, I’m 24f, and I hate being a nanny. I have a college degree and been doing this job all my life ( with the same family since I was about 14). But I’m still doing it while I look for a full time job related to my degree. I get paid $12.50 to watch 3 kids ( 13yr old, 10 yr old, and 8 yr old). They are all disrespectful and have no discipline. They are constantly yelling, fighting, and hitting each other. The 8 year old is verbally abusive ( telling me I can’t control my diet and need to lose weight). She is also extremely inappropriate, she strips naked and pretends to make sex noises. The mom puts so much pressure on me to come babysit, even when I say no, many times she pushes. She even once had the 10 year old call me asking me if I can come and play ( seems like she did it so I’d feel guilty saying no). I also clean while I’m there since they ask me to( the dishes, kids rooms) The thing is, this family has been in my Life since I was like 13, and the mom is lawyer, so when I was having alot of depression and disability issues, she helped out by dealing with the school and making sure I get The help I need, so I feel like I owe her in a way

EDIT: I just wanted to say that I did not expect all of this advice and all of this support from everyone! I have taken everyone’s advice and have written it down! Thank you so much guys! I have alot more hope now! I know I need to work on setting boundaries for my own mental health/well being. Thank you so much everyone. I’m so grateful for all the advice and support you all have given me!

And yes… I will see what I can do about reporting the child’s behavior! Since I now know this behavior is not appropriate and can be a sign of sexual abuse. And yes, I will be setting strong boundaries with this family and will leave asap and find a better job!