Losing my mind, need advice

Did you end up hiring a nanny or sending your LO to daycare after trying WFH? I work from home full time as a web designer for the healthcare industry which requires deep focus. My 4.5 month old LO is a fomo baby and doesn’t like being put down or having a moment where he’s not being entertained. I pump 4x per day, and he’s also going through sleep regression so each nap takes at least 30 minutes of soothing to begin (and he still isn’t good at keeping to a nap schedule yet, try as I might).

Feeling like I’m losing my mind. I have guilt about the idea of sending him to daycare since I am home, but also guilt about hiring a nanny part time (can only afford part time nanny) bc ultimately that means my husband and myself either won’t save as much for retirement or LO won’t get as much contribution to his education fund. Ahhh! Everything feels like a lose/lose situation, and especially my self-care! I am lucky if I rinse off every third day, to be 100% honest. I am unhappy, exhausted, and BURNT the eff out.

My husband helps a ton. He goes to work each day so he has a separation time. A few weeks ago we began a weekend schedule that includes meal prep for the week and scheduled free-time for each of us. That’s helped with food and a couple of off hours, but otherwise I somehow am still moving from 6/7am until 9pm at night, and my work is still suffering.

Someone please just tell me how to manage it all and/or what decision to make. I can’t think straight anymore.