I wanna quit.

26tard (11th) here. Got whole syllabus backlog. I literally don't know what I want to do in life. Mom always taunts and compares with others as I was a pretty bright child in school. Am getting suidal thoughts almost everyday nowadays. Went to fiitjee at first, they bought unacademy subscription, even pw subscription and got into a well renowned in our city local coaching ab. Wasted a hell lot of money altogether. I don't even like to study. My parents just want me to get into IIT. I literally don't know what to do and what not to do. I cry by myself almost everyday ab toh. I seriously need some advice. I really think I should quit jee. I have heard many 11th wasted success stories but its just they might have had the determination to study which I don't. My interest in studies declined after 9th. I seriously need some help. Please tell me what I should do... I feel suIdal the most I ever did today. Isiliye please. Help me out..