VENT POST - ib made me suicidal im losing it 😋

yall know the way kendrick was describing how much he hates drake in euphoria. that is me to the ib. im gonna be so fr i cant stand shit shit anymore, while i understand its on me for having missing assignments and coursework i legitimately can not stand how unempathetic some teachers and my fucking dp coordinator are. i might fail ib, bro 2 years of this madness to fail? just kill me. tbf ok i get their stress towards me, i dont do my work, but how tf is setting stricter deadlines, telling my parents, and just informing me doing to help. mfs at my school wont do shit unless u have a serious mental issue and im not about to tell my school i wanna kms over ib cause no 1: my school is so unhelpful to anyone going through a mental health crisis, no 2: no one will give shit, no 3: my parents will find out and kill me themselves, no 4: u think i can afford any mental help? bro dont make me laugh, no 5: i dont want people knowing cause now why would i want anyone to know. everything i say take a grain of salt im just an angry stressed student.

anyways the point is i give up, ik ill probably get replies blaming me and what not and yeah i get it. i wont deny it is my own fault that i didnt do my coursework and the fact i might fail because of it is a consequence of my own action. i just wish considering deadlines are in the hands of my school they would understand how difficult it is to be a highschooler. i understand other people in my grade were able to get it done, but why basically ruin my life because im struggling? like this entire situation just makes me more suicidal than i already am... atp may as well go through with it. theres no point in any of this, if they fail me fine im just going to kms.

TLDR: ib me no likey, also im a very shit student and i understand that