Im sad, it’s hard to enjoy food.

My biggest fear is diabetes or my blood vessels being blocked by junk. My mother came home with some fried chicken, I was oh so excited! But as I started eating, I was thinking more and more of how horrible this stuff is for me. I started taking the skin off the chicken and avoiding the fatty parts, and i ate an entire plate full of unseasoned green beans to try to compensate what I did to my body. This makes me oh so sad, I can’t even enjoy a good meal anymore without being in fear of what’s in it. What can I do friends? Is there any hope?