Living with herpes

I got diagnosed with herpes some years ago and It just doesn’t get better. As a man with this I feel so ashamed and disappointed in myself and have no motivation to get anything done. I wanna isolate my self all the time and I every time I get close to telling a girl I have it I cut her off and just suffer in silence again. I can’t do this and am literally hanging on by a thread to survive. I don’t know what to do and would like some advice on how to navigate living with this as a young man. I pray and I cry everyday and nobody knows I deal with this except a friend or two and they kind of just figured I got over it and I don’t talk to them about it much anymore at all.