So tired

Ts is on my mind always because I have no answers… or treatment. I can just feel myself getting depressed more every week. I haven’t been intimate and I feel like I know who gave jt to me because when I brought it up she said “you know they say you don’t have to tell anybody” and that’s not my concern but since that was her response I been thinking a lot and like she knew and ain’t say anything and idk how to approach it. That’s not really the point of the point it’s just more to express my feelings of exhaustion and social isolation… I am so sad I’ve never had anything conclusive but a positive antibody test. I wish I never took it because since then I haven’t been myself. Making this post instead of calling the suicide hotline because they are no help really anyways…