I just really need to vent

I had HG for the first two trimesters of my pregnancy. I lost a total of 6 kgs, vomiting up to 5 times a day, taking metacloramide, ondancetron, doxylamine, vit b6, ginger tablets and promethazine, I could barely function because I was so highly medicated. I needed to be hospitalised several times due to dehydration as I couldnt even keep water down. Finally was starting to get better and able to eat and got diagnosed with GDM.

I am currently 33 weeks, I can't eat more than one serve of carbs at a time or I spike. I have only gained 5kgs since the initial weightloss, which I gained prior to my GDM diagnosis, the diabetes team and dieticians seem so focused on me staying diet controlled that I literally can't eat enough to gain weight. I have an allergy to most meat protiens resulting in psoriasis all over my body making meal planning difficult. I basically eat one wholemeal crumpet for breakfast, some haloumi, cucumber and chickpeas for lunch and a cauliflower fritata for dinner. I spend at least an hour every day crying about food, and hours stressing about my BGLs. I hate this, I wish I never got pregnant and I want this to end, I don't think I can do this for another 7 weeks.