im so fucking upset man

i didnt get the results i wanted and got lower than i did in my mocks, some lessons turned around for me, but i am just able to not instantly get rejected from med schools. i wanted to be a surgeon too, and im scared my results will just ruin it. most likely i wont get into the uni i want too. i worked so hard and its all just meaningless now. some days id work 8-9 hours a day and those who did better than me all just happened to barely revise. i hate my life