This war is terrifying

Of course this is obvious but I guess nowhere is really safe.

I’m not a person who wants to die, but at this point I’m not sure that even safe areas are safe anymore 😭

I love to come here for reassurance but what kind of lies am I feeding myself?

As if the IDF will spare my life because I’m so special and innocent and want peace or something….

I know deep down one bomb will kill me and my family and no one will know how to explain it anymore.

A casualty? A human shield? A martyr?

Fuck that this is not how I wanna go 😭

We’re not in a hezb area or affiliated to hezb but I’m terrified for real.

I know if god forbid we die it’s not gna be anything special :( I don’t want that.

I don’t want my death to be just another number, or worse, to be used against me, i don’t want the people who support the IDF to think it was an unfortunate accident and I don’t want the people who support hezb to think I’m a martyr.

I never wanted anything to do of this war, I wish I can publish this statement somewhere.

If I die I’m just gna be a victim, not a shield, not a martyr, nor a casualty.