I'm too late to change my docs

I missed a day of work and school, running around at full anxiety spending 10000000 dollars on printing documents, having 4 different passport info people tell me 4 different things, printing the wrong docs then having to redo the right ones after everything closed, navigating the snow storm here in the south with everything closed, breaking into university buildings to get copies of documents in time, rearranging my entire schedule for this passport appointment, buying a plane ticket next week to qualify for an expedited passport...

Only to get here and have them tell me it probably won't work. That they have to send my application up to HQ to see what they think, which almost definitely means they'll deny the sex change because I live in a horrific fucking red state.

I'm just heartbroken. I spent months getting an order for name/sex change only for it to be weeks late. I ditched that plan to get at least my sex changed on stuff and even that won't work now. I'm so upset. I guess there's still some tiny chance they approve it, but it's a weekend and all theyre really doing is giving the state several more days to enact laws against it.

I won't be able to travel to the places I want to go, every job I'll be outed. Every person who sees my fucking ID or passport will know. I know this isn't the worst possible thing in the world but man it feels horrible right now. Sorry, just a vent because I've had a horrible couple of days dealing with this and I'm so fucking mad and sad. WHY THE FUCK can't they just process it when no laws have been made yet? No no, they have to wait several more days, which is several more days for this dumb fucking state to actually make those laws. Jesus fucking christ. With my luck, they'll pass laws banning it the day they look at my fucking application 4 days from now.

Even shittier update: I then drove to my social security appointment an hour away, which I’ve had all week, checked in online, only to have someone call me and say the office is closed. WHY. WHY DIDNT THEY TELL ME BEFORE THE APPOINTMENT. I get to do this next week now and i’m not even sure it’ll work. What fucking wastes.