Ex reached out after two months of NC, I wasn't ready for this even though I thought I was.

So in my case I didn't directly reach out.

My Ex and I had been dating for a year and it was long distance until I met him end of August. I met his family, neighbours and lived with him for two weeks, having a good time, until I found out he had been sexting other chicks during our time apart. After I found out, I left of course. Both of us cried a lot, his mother told me I was the best thing that had ever happened to him and we could work it out but for me it was just too much. So i went back home, told him we couldn't be friends for a while and ignored his messages for two weeks. After two weeks he sent me a letter and a very personal, selfmade gift which made me weak and we started talking again for one week. But there was this knot in my stomach, i was feeling like it was wrong, he hurt me horribly and I couldn't be his friend, I needed time to heal. So I talked to him and blocked him after our last phone call. He then sent me a message on facebook, and an email two weeks into NC and I replied saying I was going to talk to him when I was over what had happened and started missing him genuinely as a person. After that he said he understood and wished me the best, I was always welcomed to hit him up.

That was two months ago. I unblocked him and deleted his number (he can't see my profile pic so he probably thought he was still blocked). But two days ago, I don't know why but I found him in my starred contacts (probably did that last year) and I got really sad and added him back in my contacts. I also posted a Whatsapp story to see if he still had my number. He then looked at the story (it was just a nice sunset) and texted me, asking if I had unblocked him. I said "i think so" and we started talking a bit.

We gave each other brieve updates and he told me I should call him sometime and I said I'd love to. Then the next day he texted me asking what made me change my mind to unblock him, he was thinking he would never speak to me again or at least after a year. He also told me he still thought of me every day until recently but had to always stop himself because if he thought about it too much he started hating himself. He then told me to for real call him sometime because "texting is whack". That was two days ago and I haven't heard from him since.

Ugh, I know this was super long. I'm just so confused. I don't ever want to date him again but being his friend would be nice. I miss him as a friend. I wanna talk to him, ask him about his day and life and whatever but I just GENUINELY don't know how?!

Plus ever since I broke up with him, he's been doing much better. Got a job and made new friends which I think is awesome. I feel like he doesn't care too much about talking to me.

Should I just call him? Am I overthinking too much? Has anyone had a similar situation before? Is this all a bad idea???

So many questions.