Going through a breakup, looking for recs

I recently broke up with my bf of 5 years. And while I’m not sad and broken mess (mentally checked out a couple of months ago). I don’t want to read anything fluffy right now. Like I am usually a dark romance, fantasy romance, even contemporary cute romance girly. But right now I just want a solid dark romance TBR for the next two months and I’m having a little bit of trouble.

Here’s my thing. I know that a lot of people love the “innocent, inexperienced” FMC trope. I have no problem with it, since it’s very common in dark romance. And tbh, it makes sense bc in real life most dark romance men would gravitate more towards someone like that; however, I am looking for an experienced FMC, preferably someone who has been through her fair share of failed relationships. Preferably mid 20s or older. I love age gap, forbidden, taboo romances. Boss, Professor-student, men in positions of power. Adoptive or step family members. I love gangbangers, cartel and mafia dons, stalkers, ASPD men. I practically have no triggers except for FMC getting cheated on. I wouldn’t even mind her cheating on someone that’s not the MMC tbh. I probably would draw the line at mutilating genitals or knowingly spreading a deadly STD. But I can’t think of anything else lol. Don’t mind exhibitionism, threesomes and trains (as long as I get some m on m action).

I also do enjoy thrillers and love a gothic setting with some paranormal shit in my dark romance. I also wouldn’t mind fantasy elements as long as I get a morally charcoal, ACTUAL dark romance.

Thank you in advance!! I know this is long.